Whinies and Roses

For the past several days I have struggled with a little bit of boredom, a lot of selfishness, and sheer exhaustion. I don't know if its just my body trying to bounce back from being sick, but I could sleep all day, literally! All I have wanted to do is not deal with Wesley. I kick myself for even thinking that I wouldn't want him around, but to be honest, some days the last thing I want to be is a mommy who has to constantly be on her toes. It doesn't help that he has been sooooo whiny either. I can't tell what is going on, if its the molars he's cutting or if he doesn't feel well, but its DRIVING ME CRAZY!!! Mom, if you read this, I am sooooooooo sorry for being a whiner! I know you are thinking - "What goes around comes around, so just deal with it!" I know you must have wanted to toss me out the window multiple times - at least all those times when you weren't smashing bread and butter in my face!

This morning, I was already bracing for a terrible day when Wesley started whining and it wasn't even 8am. I had told him that he wasn't allowed to whine until at least 4pm, but whatever. As I was washing the dishes while he was eating breakfast, I just lost it, and I continued to lose it for like the next hour and a half. I was frustrated about something Adam and I had talked about, frustrated with Wesley and the whinies, and frustrated at myself for feeling depressed. Wesley picked up on it and started crying and wanted to be held, so there we sat on the couch watching tv, crying. Eventually it came to an end and I noticed that my sweet little boy had fallen asleep! On a normal day I would NEVER have allowed this, but I reasoned that today was not normal and if I didn't have a shower or get dressed before 5pm, then it would be okay. Wesley slept about 45 minutes on me and I actually caught a few Z's myself. He woke up happy and that was that (He even took another 1 1/2 hr. nap later!). As you've seen by now this blog really has no point, I'm just venting somewhat about a crappy day. The day actually got a little better as it went on. When Adam came home it got even better because he surprised me with these...


Yellow roses are some of my favorite...how thoughtful of him! He also brought home a bottle of wine and gave me a sweet card! So, the day hasn't been complete waste. Maybe it will just keep getting better!